Someone please just fucking help me…
I’m torn between wanting to be saved and wanting to let everything go.
I wish of never fallen in love with you.
I just want to let go…
I’m failing all of my classes besides Psychology,
I’m not motivated to do anything anymore.
I just lay in bed all day.
I cancel plans with people,
and avoid parties and things of that nature.
I think too much,
about stupid things that I shouldnt let get to me.
The thoughts about losing weight haven’t left me.
The thoughts about running away have been feeling heavier.
I think I need help.
I’m just scared of life passing me by.
I want to be happy, and I want to be functional.
But I feel like right now I’m just biting off more than I can chew.
That I’m trying to be perfect and brilliant in college and life,
but I’m trying to hard, and it’s getting me nowhere but deeper into depression.
Should I ask for help?
It’s making me cry. Everything she says hits so close to home, I’m so glad I’ve had friends to help me with my thoughts and feelings…
The ones I’ve shared anyway…
I lost 20 pounds in 3 and a half months..
I was killing myself and doing terrible things to myself.
And it took me a long time to tell someone about it.
I’m so glad I did.
I’m still struggling,
but I’ve been getting better,
and it’s been a while since I’ve gone days without eating.
I’m so thankful to all you people on tumblr who have told me something,
and all the people I know in my life that have, given me words, bought me lunch, took me to a family dinner, took me to coffee waves just for a muffin…
I’m so glad to have people to care about me, and I want all of you to know,
I can be that for you. Never fear someone’s opinion, I would never judge you.
You are amazing, you are beautiful, and you deserve a chance to be heard.
I’m here for you.
You’re not alone.