New Life Break Away
My new phone cover.
This was my view earlier today :)) I love it here.
Going for my darker look today. I haven’t in slept 24 hours. My mind and eyes are fixing to explode and I have a wicked need to have something in my mouth, I’ve been biting my lips like crazy. Wish I was with my bf. guess cigarettes will have to do til I’m out of classes later.
;)don’t change the source xoxo
Finally got my piece done “501st Vader’s Fist” !don’t change the source please :3
My face, don’t change the source, went through sufficient amount of pain to not have credit taken from me.
Bite me.
My dirty tongue.
I’m starved of it.
I wish for only the attention of the guy I chose…
But he doesn’t give me all that I need.
And I know that in some sick kind of way I love that..
I love that I have to command his attention for a kiss or a look..
If he was all over me I’d be suffocated by the nearness of him.
If he lusted after me the way I lust after him I would be burned by his proximity
His touch would ache in a foul way and I’d begin to rot.
I cannot explain how this sick toxic thing became something I needed…
But if it were any other way I wouldn’t be able to go on with him.
I need to be loved but I will push any one who gets too close.
He doesn’t realize how fucked up and high it makes me feel when I have to plead for his attention…
How I have to kiss his neck and stomach a million times to get him to want me to actually touch him.
I’m a sick filthy creature I just want to love and be love and satisfy, but I can’t let anyone near..
And I guess that’s why I stick around…
I’ve become such a pathetic disgusting piece of shit.
I don’t even deserve him. He’s a great boyfriend, a normal girl would be perfect and in love with just the way he is and not needy of him the way I am.
I know I’m toxic and infectious and will be like cancer to him…
But he is mine and I am his and I want to keep playing this sick game of chase.
He’s mine and I’m his and I don’t want it any other way,
Because any other way would destroy what’s left of me.
Music &tumblr.